"So what do you say in a moment like this?"

There is a song that Reba sings called "What do you say?" And like all her songs, it's a good one. I've had so many of those "So what do you say in a moment like this?" times. The loss that kinda comes out of nowhere to slam into you. The fear. And then your indecision. 

Today, I've seen a lot about grief. Things like

Grief never ends, but it changes. It's a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, or a lack of faith. It is the price of love. 

Or

The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not 'get over' the loss; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again, but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, or want to be the same

So what do you say in a moment like that?

When you are trying to see the time you will have rebuilt your life around the loss, when you can see that the price you paid for loving those kids was acceptable? 

I honestly do not know. Haven't gotten there yet. But I do "go on". I live. Sometimes that's all I do. Sometimes not. Sometimes I'm happy, and sometimes not. But I never forget the grief. And it turns out there is only one person who shares that grief with me. In the world of the young, it's easier to put it out of you mind. And that is as it should be. And in the wold of the those who have mental health issues (I don't mean they are unstable, just that they have issues dealing with things in a rational manner) it's *much* harder to see another persons pain.

That other person who shares my grief, and supports me through it - I cannot lose you because if I did I'd have lost my best friend, my soul mate, my smile, my laugh - my everything! You've made mistakes and so have I, and yet here we are - together.