Reminders

I find myself reading about grief all too often. Your Nana went into the hospital for "exploratory surgery" - a way of saying that they needed to go inside her veins, arteries and heart to find out what was causing her pain. The procedure had a pretty high risk and I found myself prepping for grieving. And then something happened that slammed into me pretty hard - I won't say what because I don't want that person to "catch grief" because of what they did; Suffice it to say, I spent time in the bathroom crying and not for your Nana.

Today, I am reminded of 10 things:

1. It's okay to be sad
2. Hard moments come when you least expect them
3. My loved ones need to hear me talk about you - and maybe I need to hear me do it too
4. My grief dictates others grief - a fancy way of saying "if momma ain't happy, nobody is happy"
5. Other people see the way I grieve and sometimes model that
6. I have different needs than others who grieve for the same reasons
7. One day I need to feel safe to ask questions
8. It's hard, and will continue to be hard
9. I need to show myself some grace.
*I need to adjust my expectations so that I won't burn out trying to achieve an unrealistic standard.
10. It's okay to ask for help through the grief

All lessons I need to learn