Today, someone I know mentioned that she had a loss in her "chosen" family, a person close to her not related by blood. I am so very sorry for her loss. Those family members that we choose are the ones that leave the largest impressions in our heart and the largest shadow in their leaving.
Thinking about things as I have been recently, and her loss, made me realize that my loss is no less significant. We chose you guys. Maybe the timing was right. You poured whiteout all over that couch for a reason - and that reason was because the universe chose you to be a part of "us". I have a shadow over my life that grows with each year as you grow, that changes as you change. One that I never forget, and never want to.
I have insomnia and have had for a very long time - since long before you guys became a part of "us". I have trouble going to sleep, staying asleep and I wake up earlier than I should. Turns out that a lot of that is pain-related, but I digress. I still remember times when I napped, waking up to see your part of "us" watching kitty videos online at the computer. I remember green candy apple flavored popcorn, and a fashion show of clothes made from recycled items. I remember a bucket of legos and other building toys that I purchased at a yard sale spilled out on the table, with you content to sort through it. I'm glad I have those memories. It makes the shadows over my heart soften a little.
I see you in the bluebonnets by the road I drove y in the springtime, in the parks I pass in my travls, in the kittens Cava the cat had a few months ago. I will always keep you close to my heart, and always in my minds eye
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